Why does stress exist??? WHY?? Especially, for the most unnecessary reasons!!!

Stress poster (1)Stress n’ Depression, is something I keep going through. Sometimes, it’s worse, sometimes it’s not that bad. Last year, one day I couldn’t handle it, and I denounced Buddhism for ever (been more of Free Thinker anyway). Ah!! The extremist evils, of religion. Of Race!! Of nationality!! Fake Patriotism!! False Pride!! I don’t belong here!! How do I escape it!!
Stress PostThis weekend was pretty bad for me!! Saturday, uncalled for stress, started, thanks to the most silliest of arguments. It just got worse, and worse!! Lankan bloody Buddhism has brought me sooo much of bad luck in my life! This hypocritical country. Saturday evening, there was a social event in Siripura, the private housing scheme I live in (an event I’d been looking forward to, especially ‘cause I do love to socialise, but happen to be a recluse in this country, for very good reasons); but the way I was stressed, I just didn’t feel like attending. But I did!! Splashed cold water on my eyes, dressed up fashionably (despite my hideously bulky appearance, which too happens to be a result of depression, and medication), a cowboy hat, boots et al; went down there, smiled at everyone, danced, suppressing my pain, postponing it, a little; and nobody could ever guess what I really was going through!! Am glad I went. For next day, Sunday!! Things worsened!! Meanwhile, my elder dog is ill too!! Sometimes I worry, whether the negative atmosphere of this doggist nation, and my depression, has rubbed off on her too. But, no, I’ve seen her jump up in joy, even when, the most viciously dog hating humans, pass by our gate; even if they poke a stick to hurt her, she thinks they are playing with her!!

My stress hasn’t gone off yet. Stress comes on and off, on a regular basis, but when it sticks on, it takes a while to get off! The last thing I wanted to do was Blog about it. But here I am. This is my second Blog Post, related to my mental strain (See my post Day of Depression from September 2015; or don’t, it’s best to forget it, completely)
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Trying my best to stay sane, in an archaically; crude, inhumane, ignorant, foolish, cheap; society; that I never really belonged in!!!

Hope this heaviness I feel, on my head, and my chest, physical/psychological, goes away ASAP!! And I get back to blogging!!!

Nuwan Sen

Nuwan Sen

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