Why does stress exist??? WHY?? Especially, for the most unnecessary reasons!!!
Stress n’ Depression, is something I keep going through. Sometimes, it’s worse, sometimes it’s not that bad. Last year, one day I couldn’t handle it, and I denounced Buddhism for ever (been more of Free Thinker anyway). Ah!! The extremist evils, of religion. Of Race!! Of nationality!! Fake Patriotism!! False Pride!! I don’t belong here!! How do I escape it!!
This weekend was pretty bad for me!! Saturday, uncalled for stress, started, thanks to the most silliest of arguments. It just got worse, and worse!! Lankan bloody Buddhism has brought me sooo much of bad luck in my life! This hypocritical country. Saturday evening, there was a social event in Siripura, the private housing scheme I live in (an event I’d been looking forward to, especially ‘cause I do love to socialise, but happen to be a recluse in this country, for very good reasons); but the way I was stressed, I just didn’t feel like attending. But I did!! Splashed cold water on my eyes, dressed up fashionably (despite my hideously bulky appearance, which too happens to be a result of depression, and medication), a cowboy hat, boots et al; went down there, smiled at everyone, danced, suppressing my pain, postponing it, a little; and nobody could ever guess what I really was going through!! Am glad I went. For next day, Sunday!! Things worsened!! Meanwhile, my elder dog is ill too!! Sometimes I worry, whether the negative atmosphere of this doggist nation, and my depression, has rubbed off on her too. But, no, I’ve seen her jump up in joy, even when, the most viciously dog hating humans, pass by our gate; even if they poke a stick to hurt her, she thinks they are playing with her!!
My stress hasn’t gone off yet. Stress comes on and off, on a regular basis, but when it sticks on, it takes a while to get off! The last thing I wanted to do was Blog about it. But here I am. This is my second Blog Post, related to my mental strain (See my post Day of Depression from September 2015; or don’t, it’s best to forget it, completely)
Trying my best to stay sane, in an archaically; crude, inhumane, ignorant, foolish, cheap; society; that I never really belonged in!!!
Hope this heaviness I feel, on my head, and my chest, physical/psychological, goes away ASAP!! And I get back to blogging!!!
Nuwan Sen
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Clicking like doesn’t seem appropriate given the content of your post, but I do hope you feel a little better for getting things off your chest.
Obviously I can’t comment on the situation in your home country, but I do empathise with your struggle with stress and depression. I suffer doing a job I hate six days a week; just today I’ve been coerced into working overtime, walking the streets for hours in the pouring rain.
It’s often a relief to get home, make a cup of tea and lose myself in the blogosphere. I hope you do get back to blogging soon, your comments over at my place always make my day!
Thanks for the kind words Paul!!
People stress you out unnecessarily here, just to test you patience, in this sadistic country. Job stress; stress due to studies, these are normal, that everyone goes through, as have I. But these people, just coming and troubling you, with their idiotic, negative, narrow-minded, extremist views. They think this is the best country in the world!! To me it’s the most disgusting now!!
Added to which, I hardly get a chance to speak to anyone!!
Thanks again, for the lovely compliment !!
I’m sorry to hear your anxieties are getting the best of you. Why don’t you leave and live where you will be happier?
Trust me Cindy, I would if I could!! And someday, I shall, get the chance to do so. Keeping my fingers crossed!!
Appreciate your concern. Thanks!! 🙂
HI Nuwan, Sorry to hear about this stressful issues. I remember going through something similar a few years ago.
The sad bit is that I tend to see everything negative … and miss so many apportunities of turning things around.
Take everything as a challenge: a way to learn some lesson and see the positive in all. Am sure, things will turn around soon and your crazy self will be back!
ps. i hardly use this email address. Use the one on this message
Thanks Manish!! And please don’t worry. I can still cope. Just reside in the wrong country. A highly, negative, one at that.
Besides, my stress won’t affect my wit, in any way, whatsoever!! 😀
O Nuwan I just pray for u …I hope it gets over and u crack out of ur stress as soon as possible n b happy.
Ur elder dog….Hows she now?
Thanks man. My dogs are both fine. And I’m survivor!! I won’t give into these idiotic people that easily.
Great to hear they r fine 🙂
That sounds like the way to go…u just need urself …dun care about those people….Stay happy brother 🙂
Cheers!! 🙂
I’m sorry to hear you were depressed. Words come to mind. Sad. Bad week. Assholes troubling you. But of course depression is more than being upset, more than a bad thing happening and not something to be got over. It is something to deal with and overcome repeatedly and it sounds like you’ve got a handle on that. You rode a wave and are to be admired for being able to share when you were you sliding down on it before inevitably rising again. I hope you’re high up right now and wish you continued happiness. Where do you live?
Thanks man, for the very supportive comments. Yes, I do go through a lot of depression here, in fact right now am going through it; but I do try my best not to let it drag me down. It’s not easy to stay afloat, but I won’t give in to them, that easily.
I live in Sri Lanka, and am genuinely not a fan of this country, and it’s people, in general. Doesn’t matter, which race or religion they belong to, they all (almost all), are practically the same. Hard to trust, troublesome, extremist nationalist etc etc …. Not my country!!! Not anymore!!
Good to hear your spirit is intact.
Cheers!! 🙂